Marching on into December

So here I am attempting to study for psychology, only 2 quizzes & a test away from finishing this course, and what do I do... I fall asleep, sure it was only for twenty minutes, but before I fall asleep I'm reviewing the module in the textbook on motivation stress. How convenient that I fall asleep when reading about motivation, obviously they should have done something a little more exciting to keep me interested in this chapter, but apparently that was not there idea at all. So studying turned into sleeping, which turned into being woken by Jeremy (thank goodness) which turned into me creeping facebook, skyping Clarissa for an hour, and browsing my new favorite site-- thatawkwardmoment.net , to eventually blogging. Man I'm MOTIVATED:) Maybe a break for a bit was all I needed to get back into studying, and maybe pulling myself out of this amazingly comfy bed would do the trick, so here I am at my desk, uncomfortable chair, too bright of a light, and still... NOTHING!

So instead I went on stumbleupon and found some interesting stuff that lifted my spirits, days like today all I want to do is relax, but I have little time to do that because classes are officially finished in THREE DAYS, so that's only 3 days of classes left, 6 days of practicum left, and 16 days separating me from my family & Cleveland for Christmas- minus dad for now. Since the family is in Cleveland for the time being, the only person with health care is Mitch because mom & Dad are still covered with NS health, so if somebody gets sick, it's back to Canada they come, which is why I'm picking my wonderful father up from the airport Wednesday afternoon. Go figure things have been going okay compared to past months that something has to happen. Hopefully he's okay and the doctor finds nothing too serious wrong so he can make it back to the States for Christmas time. It would feel extremely weird having everyone there but dad. Florida is even in our minds as a Christmas escape to see Sienna, Samara, and Jeremy, which brings me to more exciting news. Samara & Jeremy are engaged:)! They've been together 6 years this past November 6th, and hopefully on their 7th year they will be tying the knot! That's one positive in a pile of negatives.

I'm looking forward to the weekend, Last class bash @ Acadia & since NSCC sucks & never does anything fun I'll celebrate with my girls in Wolfville for the night. Plus after a long day of practicum it'll be well worth it. Working Saturday night @ Cocoa Pesto, which I've had very few shifts at lately, which hurts the old bank account, and then some more relaxing bringing me into the next week.

My practicum has gone amazing so far this semester, and I'm really liking Wolfville Children's Centre and the multi age classroom's they have set up, I'm going to work part-time as a substitute when they need me, which is great for experience and because I just love being around children, who always seem to have so much joy.

Jeremy and I got our christmas tree all set up, after a great night of music yummy smells and lights we are all decked out for christmas, which is good since I'm leaving so soon. Now, the big task at hand is to get my family in Cleveland into the Christmas spirit, which I plan to do with baking, decorating, and loud annoying music as SOON as I arrive:)

Tomorrow..

"Your the hardest habit that I've ever tried to quit." <3

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts. You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, laugh until your tummy hurts, and smile until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back.

Reading over some random quotes today and I really got to thinking. There are so many things I have left in my heart that I should have, could have, wanted to say to people, and never did. So many chances I could've taken and done so much with, and so many people I could have fixed things with, and the outcome could change my today, Entirely. Having a lot on my mind that I wish I had taken advantage of in years previous when I was given the opportunity. I keep thinking about my past, family, old friends, old loves, old places, and It makes me smile. Even though things sometimes turned out entirely the opposite of how I planned, I am so grateful for everything I have in my life. Even though I wanted to say things years ago, or maybe they just never came out right, I still can, and although they will produce different outcomes today than they would've then, at least I didn't hold back. So Here I am, sitting indian style on the couch in flannel pajamas with country blasting in the background. Here I am being grateful for every moment I had and everyone that was in it. Here I am realizing maybe things turned out exactly how they were supposed to, Because You can't fight Fate.

So to everyone I may have hurt and not had the courage to say I'm sorry, I am. To everyone that I didn't tell how much I loved them, I do & always will, and To everyone that was always there for me no matter what kind of craziness I put them through, I Thank You.<3

                                                                           

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Pride!

So my week played out exactly as I had planned. I went to my tour at Mount Saint Vincent on Friday. Kait Lawrence came with me which was a huge support. She could tell I was so extremely nervous because I was rambling like a fool almost the entire tour. The tour guide made me a little nervous I guess you could say. The campus is beautiful though, small and comfortable, and the facilities available to me are great. I'm really excited for that. We had lunch with a current student and I got to ask her a bunch of questions about the program and the school, and as I was finishing my food I checked my email and sure enough I GOT MY ACCEPTANCE letter while still on campus. I had one of those embarassing grins from cheek to cheek for probably two hours. I am so excited to be at a university and get that whole experience too. :) We met up with Anna for supper at Your Father's Moustache and had a good meal, catching up and telling old familiar stories. I stayed at Anna's in Hammond's Plains for the night which was awesome. We watched some movies and just got to have some girl time like we used to. Saturday, oh Saturday, came so early! After a sleepless night at Anna's, as I am coming down with a cold, I had to get up super early to head home in time for the Muir Murray Wine Run. Let me tell ya, it was freezing outside. I was not looking forward to this run!

I picked up my girlfriend Shannon and we headed to the winery where we found like three hundred people and so much excitement, my spirits were instantly lifted. The sound of the gun echoed across the property as did the footsteps going down the trail. We signed up to do 5 kilometers, and it was my first 5 k run ever! I ran almost the entire run, only stopping briefly for walk breaks so I didn't ovetire myself, and of course for the main event, the WINE!

At the water breaks we got thimbles of wine instead, red and white, and I was shocked at the 2.5km mark that we had even gone that far. We finished the race in 40 minutes including the wine breaks. I was so proud of myself, and so grateful for my wonderful friend Shannon who supported me and went the same pace the entire time. Jeremy's mom and her friends were there all dressed in cocktail dresses, just like us. We thought it'd be fun for the race since we got to be so classy sipping wine. It was a blast. Snowflakes and 0 degrees with crazy wind, made for the perfect morning. I headed home and took a nice hott bath, followed by my pajamas and relaxing all day.

What a perfect weekend<3

21!

The girl who sucks at blogging

Yeah Yeah, it's been all of a month and ----- days since I wrote, I clearly suck at keeping up on things now don't I? Since I last wrote I've had a million things going on, from courses at school picking up to the new job, the trip to the states, and a ton of other little things. Life has gotten busy, and I can't even imagine what was going through my head when I said "I couldn't wait for school to start back," because I'm all ready for year 2 to be finished.
My trip to Cleveland and North Carolina was a huge "Pick Me Up" given the circumstances my family has been in these miserable five months. Mitch is so strong it makes me proud and motivates me to do everything I want to, because life is so precious. I got to Cleveland and spent two days there and then me, Mitch, and my mom packed up the van and traveled the 8 hour drive to good old Mebane, North Carolina. We were only there for a short weekend so I had to make every minute count, and see the people that I still keep in touch with and care about. My oldest, closest friend Alex just had her baby boy, Levi. He was so little and precious. I forgot how small Sienna once was, it's shocking to see how quickly children grow. We went out to our favorite mexican restaurant and ate lots of delicious food, and saw some old familiar faces, and Samara and Sienna met us there. It was great to see everyone:) Taylor and Megan and Alex and baby levi all came and had dinner, and I got to see my old friend Dalton afterwards. Seeing Dalton was very hard for me because the last time I saw him was a year ago and he was very different from what I had remembered because he's had a rough go with life, loss, and love since way back in grade 10 when I moved. Things change everyday, and so do people. Seeing him this time was completely different, he had gotten that positive attitude back in him. We chatted about old times and laughed about some things about his wonderful father, who passed away our grade 11 year. He's met a great girl and things are finally starting to look up for him, so that was another HUGE positive. Oh I'm sure I forgot to mention, this entire trip my brother made everything HILARIUS. His sense of humor and overall personality is exactly the same from before his accident. We were back to our old brother/sister team, taunting mom and dad, and making fun of just about everything in sight, even if it got us in trouble haha:) The way it made me feel was amazing. 
I spent the rest of the weekend seeing everyone I cared about and doing things I wanted to while I was there, which included going to my old house and seeing how some things just haven't changed a bit, some things are just where you left them. It was a short and sweet trip. I learned a little clearer who my real friends are in North Carolina, and whose priorities are friends rather than material things, some people never change. I guess it just took me some growing up to realize that a lot of people there are exactly as they always were, I was just to naive to see it at thirteen.
I got back to Cleveland and spent the remaining few days with my family, and headed back to Nova Scotia after a short week. The job situation is still the same- at Cocoa Pesto, having some rough nights not remembering things the way I should. Sometimes I get way too nervous under pressure, but this job is so worth it to me, and I really need to keep it because it's my ticket this next year. It's getting better, slowly. 
School is the same old same old, assignments coming in large groupings and then not at all for weeks. I've got almost everything done for the next two weeks in all my course on site and only a few things to do for my online classes. It's a lot less stressful than Jeremy's schoolwork for sure, but I am really ready for university. The whole post-high school mentality of community college is driving me crazy. I've applied to MSVU and am going for a tour on Friday. What else is new, oh how about the excercise thing!! I've been ROCKING IT, gym at least three times a week, walking/jogging/running (minus when I sprained my foot... still recovering) and I'm signed up for a 5k run on Saturday with my friend Shannon, Jeremy's mom, Lise, and maybe even Jer<3 I won a free fall family photoshoot with "Wadden and Schorre Photography" with mom's good friend Lise, and Jeremy and I got absolutely breathtaking photo's done, another big PLUS:) I just love my life.
Today was Jeremy's 21st birthday<3 Able to drink EVERYWHERE now:) I made him a big yummy breakfast, drove him to school, and then we did cake and dinner at his parents which was WONDERFUL. (we missed mia on skype though:( ) He got lots of money and some of the presents he wanted, some delicious cake, and good times with family. Today was also an amazing day... today Mitch got to try walking with braces using parallel bars at therapy. Seeing the video of him made me tear up instantly. He is so strong it's unbelievable, I'm getting teary typing this right now. In three days it'll be five months, five long but short months since the worst day of our lives, and already Mitch is going further than they thought. Today was just a wonderful day, a day that I'm going to end by cuddling up to a movie beside my man:)